By Deirdre Simonds and Lillian Gissen for Dailymail.Com
20:16 17 Mar 2023, updated 21:00 17 Mar 2023
Ashley Graham revealed that her husband Justin Ervin had a vasectomy after she almost died last year from a horrific hemorrhage while giving birth to her twin sons.
The 35-year-old supermodel made the revelation on the Milk Drunk podcast when she talked about raising three kids under the age of four and her husband, 34, “shooting whites.”
When asked if she was actually planning on having a fourth child after joking that she wanted another one this year, the beauty clarified that her husband was in “full vasectomy mode.”
“I don’t have to take a pill, thank God,” she said delightedly, before noting that the procedure was relatively painless for Ervin, who went shopping with her right after.
While she didn’t reveal further what influenced their decision for him to have the surgery, the couple already share sons Isaac, three, and Roman and Malachi, both one.
In May, Graham, who suffered a devastating first-trimester miscarriage 11 months before the arrival of their twins, wrote a candid essay for Glamor about her complicated delivery.
Shortly after the twins arrived, she recalled that she suddenly started bleeding and quickly lost consciousness.
This forced her delivery team into action in a desperate attempt to save her life.
The horrific incident left her in bed for four days and unable to walk for a week.
She added that the aftermath of losing her life was “deeply overwhelming” and that the whole experience changed her relationship with her body once and for all, stripping her of the confidence and positivity that her career as the world’s first plus size supermodel.
“The night I gave birth to the twins, I bled,” she recalls.
“It was 2am when my contractions started. At 3:45 a.m. I went to the bathroom thinking I had to go to the bathroom, and Malachi came out just as my doula arrived, in time to deliver him.”
Roman was born two hours and seven minutes later, and Graham initially said she and her husband — who also share son Isaac, two — as well as her “skillful” and “intelligent” team of doctors “all celebrated.”
“We couldn’t believe my labor only lasted three and a half hours, and I was so incredibly thankful for this team of skilled, intelligent and trained professionals around me, who were there for me when I had Isaac, and with me now again for the twins,” she gushed.
Their excitement soon turned to fear, however, when Graham suddenly collapsed.
“The next thing you know, I was looking at my midwife and I said, ‘I’m not feeling well. I think I should lie down,” and I passed out,” she recalls.
“All I can remember is feeling a light touch on my cheek, which I later found out was actually someone slapping the shit out of my cheek, someone holding my hand, my husband Justin in my ear, praying, and someone poking me with a needle in my arm.
“And I remember seeing darkness and what looked like stars. When I finally came to, I looked around and saw everyone.
“They kept telling me, ‘You’re fine. You’re fine. You’re fine.” They wouldn’t tell me at that point that I had lost gallons of blood.
“They wouldn’t tell me that one of the midwives had to turn me over, put her finger right above my skull bone, and try to stop the bleeding.
“And they wouldn’t tell me that the vein in my arm kept collapsing and they couldn’t get the needle for the Pitocin in, so they should have put it in my hand.
“But while they wouldn’t go into details at the time, I looked around the room, literally saw blood everywhere, and let out a deep, visceral cry—an emotional release from the chaos I’d just experienced.”
Graham explained that she couldn’t even sit up – much less walk – so the doctors carried her to her bed on a sheet.
She stayed in bed for four days straight and did not leave the house for “almost two months.”
“The midwives asked me if I could get up and walk to bed. I could not do it. I couldn’t sit up or even crawl,” she continued.
“So they grabbed a twin-size sheet, rolled me onto it, and shoved me down the hallway to my guest bedroom, where I had a trundle bed that I could barely roll on.”
Thank goodness the twins were fine as I lay on that bed for four days straight. I couldn’t walk for a week. And I haven’t left my house for almost two months.’
However, the mother-of-three called it a period full of “joy, learning and laughter, acceptance and recovery.”
She said, “It was a period filled with the joy of being with my husband and my three sons, the rhythm of our new life, learning and laughter, acceptance and recovery.”
Despite being grateful that she and her twins were fine, the mother admitted that she soon began to have trouble accepting her body.
She admitted, “Like so many women, what I went through during childbirth has reshaped my relationship with my body — and I say this knowing I’m the person who has been shouting from the rooftops to all of you, ‘Love your skin. ‘ back in.”
“But for me, the births of all three of my children threw a lot of that out the window.”
Graham said she was a “wreck” after she recovered from the incident and “didn’t feel like herself anymore physically or emotionally.”
She added that she planned to return to work eight weeks after giving birth, but soon realized that would not be the case.
“I couldn’t walk properly for a long time, let alone exercise. I was shaking, I didn’t feel myself physically or emotionally,” she wrote.
“I planned to be back to work after eight weeks, but I was a wreck and when I saw myself in the mirror I still felt like I looked pregnant.
“I work in an industry that expects me to go back to work in a body that has ‘refurbished’ – a pressure no woman in any industry deserves to feel.
“I’ve always fought against unfair and unrealistic standards and yet, if I’m being honest, I was here expecting to hit back. And fast.’
The TV presenter also recalled being “immersed in the postpartum experience” following the birth of her first son in 2020, admitting that while he was her “world,” the “physical and emotional aspects” of being of a new mother were “messy” and “a lot of hard work.”
She, Justin, and Isaac moved into her mother’s home in Nebraska after the pandemic hit, but she said it felt “really isolating and challenging” to “raise a baby not knowing anything.”
She also struggled with her body image, adding, “I was also obsessed with this 20 pounds that just wouldn’t want to come off, and it felt like my body wasn’t mine.”
“I tried to brush it off and said to myself, ‘Girl, you’re still fine, who cares.’ I got some stretch marks and I had some really good crying sessions about the stretch marks.
“But looking back, if I’d known what I was going through — oh, it’s laughable what I was so worked up about.”